On A Break!!!

Off To Surgery Today!!!!!

A picture of a shoulder joint the Doc showed, to tell me what he is going to do to.

Well in a little over an hour from now I will leave to go check in for my surgical procedure. For some of you who do not know, it has been over a year since I hurt my shoulder and they are finally going to operate on it to fix it.

They are going to repair a tear in my rotator cup, a torn tendon, remove part of my clavical bone (which they do not replace) and they will also clean out as much of the arthritis and bursitis that they can find. They will also put a shunt in my shoulder that will stay there for who knows how long, I think it depends upon my level of pain, so that I can shoot my shoulder full of the pain meds myself. This way I do not have to stay in the hospital. Just get knocked out, get the surgery done, wake up and hubby will then pick me up and take me home.

Wow, so simple. Ouch, it will be freaking painful. Lots and lots of pain. I hope I can handle it all. Then they said at least ten weeks for recovery time and possibly longer. That really sucks. Ten weeks of Physical Therapy and driving with one usable arm, well I guess you could say I am pretty good at that by now. I just will hopefully not be driving much.

And yes I am scared to death. Lots and lots of fear here. For the past few weeks, the closer it has gotten, the more it was the only thing I could think about. It is the fear of the unknown I guess. That is what is the scariest thing. I do not know anyone who has had this surgery and so I know so little about it.

Well, I just wanted you all to know that is why I have been slacking off in my comments and while I will continue to do that for quite a while, until I heal. I have been reading them and then start thinking about the pain and slip into a little world of my own. Then read another and sometimes I write things or think I wrote something and then cannot find it. Not sure if bloggo ate it or if I really wrote it. But I remember reading it.

Well signing off and going to go get ready. Take care and will update when I can.

God bless.

Update:

i am safely home w/big thingy keeping my shoulder numb for 3 days, arm in sling, recovery time is now 3 - 4 months, maybe longer, but i will show them, yup 6 mos or longer, just kidding, i hope for 3 mos. thurs, take out numbing thingy, oh BAD, BAD, BAD PAIN starts. they told me whatever they actually did, more than i thought needed, is the most painful kind to recover from. i think i am even more scared than before. got to go, tears, so can't see. one finger typing takes long time.

thank you all for the prayers and well wishes.

God bless.